Wednesday, October 30, 2013

Intuition

I love to follow my intuition. I love the feeling of knowing I am doing the right thing, even if I really don't want to do the thing. Time goes by and life happens. Money is made and money is burned. Everyone requires money to make the world go round. Who am I to deprive anyone of hard earned money. I honor those who pay me and I hope those I pay, honor me as well.

My car. Oh, my car needs more work. I have put lots of money into this car, but... I really don't want a car payment right now. Today, my car did not pass inspection. I need new control arms and a wheel bearing assembly kit on one of the tires... dang thing is wobbling... very dangerous. I used my intuition to pick the place where I would have the inspection done. I feel good about my decision. I did, however leave the place in tears. I was frustrated and unhappy about the work needing to be done and I was ready to go look at new cars...but, really... I don't want to pick out a new car because of my car's problem. I don't want to be upset and try to find a new car. So, I went for a drive and had some lunch... relaxed and cried again, only to come to the conclusion that my intuition is saying, let this guy fix my car.

I could have someone else do it and the work would be cheaper... parts and no labor... which is nice and appreciated, but something tells me that I need to have this done by this particular shop and just use the money I received as a bonus to get the work done.

I feel peaceful about my decision.

Sometimes, we don't want to follow our intuition because of how the intuitive awareness may reflect our wallet. This is where faith comes into action. Faith in the intuition and knowing all will be well! Life is not easy. Making money and keeping the bills paid, is not easy. Yet, this is a fact of our lives and we have to do this thing called MONEY... 

Monday, October 21, 2013

Vagina Voice


Woman tho I am,
Feel me sing
Listen to me dream
Woman tho I am.
What is the vagina voice?
I am a woman.
I have a voice with a dream
I have a need with a purpose
I have a desperation with an exact intent
What does my voice say?
What did my voice do?
My vagina has needs
Not all are sexual needs
My love connects from my vagina to my heart
When I breastfed my son, I felt a pleasure inside my vagina.  Not a sexual pleasure, a satisfied pleasure. Something right was happening. The pleasure traveled up to my heart and warmth poured out as I embraced my nursing child.  This love is a deep love, a fulfilling pleasure.  How often do we grasp for this love, this pleasure and we are not sated. We close or heart to the pleasure of love and the voice.  We accept the in-adequate feeling convincing ourselves THIS is acceptable.  THIS is what I get.  THIS is what I deserve.
We do not speak with our vagina voice.  We don't say, "I need to feel"..." I need more "...
I want to feel you touch my heart while you touch my vagina.  Touch my mind, soul and physical body all at the same time.
Speak from your vagina.  Speak from your intuition and your pleasure center, feel your heart sing out from your vagina.
LOVE and Live with pleasure... 
5/20/13

Friday, October 18, 2013

Hunter's Moon

Here I am, considering this Moon.. The Hunter's moon~the Blood Moon, and I look at what is sacrificed in this life, for me and I have come to the conclusion the sacrifice is the the "dollar".
I do not have to hunt or gather, but I do work to earn money for this life and the preservation of my home.
I am ever thankful for this sacrifice. I am thankful for the sacrifice of others, who pay me for the work I do. I honor you. I honor your sacrifice which enables me to make a home for my family.

I release the unnecessary clutter to build for what is necessary. Fall time is for gathering provisions for the winter time, the cold and barren time. I release the non-essential items in my household so that I am prepared for the coming time.

I am calling Balance in to being so that my outer and inner life are one.

While I was reflecting, I began to hunt out my fears. I am afraid, just a little and sometimes I doubt myself. I have these amazing dreams of changing lives while publicly speaking and writing this book to raise energetic awareness~~~I often hide behind the smile~~~ I release the fear so that I may receive the confidence to begin the end of my current goals.

Another one I am hunting, is the fear of love, receiving love. I do not know how to receive love without being afraid of becoming meaningless. So many times, the love I have given has been meaningless. I release this fear so that I might receive the love and give the love in return.

My future is hiding in my past, in seed form. I will meditate upon this and find the seed so that I am able to nurture, help, protect and watch my future blossom into a tree.

I had this amazing vision the other morning. Intense is almost the word for what I felt. I felt my lovers need to feel me accept their energy. They were filling me with all that they are and I was receiving and giving all that I am… Convulsing, I felt as if I was birthing a new reality. A world born from within my womb. The three became one. The Trine. Life everlasting to the whole of spirituality. What they gave me and what I gave to them created life and suddenly I felt all the possibilities in life. Endless possibilities. Creation is energy combined. What we all give, we all receive. Not what we give, but something new and evolved, AWAKE and TRANSFORMED…

This vision heightened my awareness… I feel more awake and ready for the coming changes.

Now, I will light some incense and give say my words of honor and sacrifice to the full moon….

Namaste…