Tuesday, February 24, 2015

A Meditation on Time~Kind of~

The last few days have been long. Perhaps, it has been the last couple of weeks~I have felt the wheel of time slow and could even hear the clinks of the movement...As if what is happening now, is a set point in my time here on this planet...unchangeable and a major determining point into my future. Fate is being written, now. Every decision being made is writing the path to the future and my place there. The web does not tangle, listen. There are pulses in life and pathways to take and answers to questions once thought unknown.
Walk softly as the wheels turn and listen to the movement time creates. Find your pathway back to love to the beginning where love is...

I sat in front of the fireplace, a warm fire blazing with candles and incense in the background. Music playing, light and simple, dancing to the beat of the flickering firelight. I connected to the here and now. The moment where the finite meets with the infinite. Sitting cross-legged and connected to the earth and sky I slowed my breathing and waited for just a moment to hear the sound of silence. The hum of life, the ring of life in my innner ear...there is where I focus my being.

I saw a large cavern, dark with a pool of clear spring water. I watch as I swim along the cavern pool. There is no darkness where I swim, for the light shines from within illuminating my way. The cavern walls are damp and there is an echo vibration and knowing of the deep. No fear. Only peace and enjoyment of the beauty in the moment. The water is clear, cold, warm and cleansing. The light shining from within my chest, illuminates the entire way, before and behind me.

While in the vision, I had a distinct awareness of my cat, playing with a rubber band beside me. I love my cat and my cat loves me. The feeling of love for this beast created an awareness of "love" in a Whole sense...The words form as a feeling, overwhelming me. The memory of love has the ability to be with you for all time. Love lives, always. Walk in your days in the memory of love. Those moments never end. Love continues to exist even when the time has passed. When you walk with love living within, the light shines. The energy resonates. The energy is remembered by all who see you. People will be drawn to you, to your light...as a moth to a flame...they will come...some will be burned, some will be overwhelmed by your light...some will take your light and create a new awareness of the light...and a few, very few will have the same light living within...Connect with this light and resonate together...Love is an awesome resonance. Seek the trail from the finite to the infinite and begin with simple memories. Trace them, one by one back to the source of your life and then you will find the ininite connection.

I felt the love of my cat and of past pets. The way I loved and cared for them and the security they had in me, to take care of them~I connected to the resonance~the feeling that I felt for them and traced the connection to a memory of love from my father. I was 8 years old and he was lying in a hospital bed, freshly diagnosed with terminal cancer. He looked at me with love, the first time I ever felt his love was close to his last days of living. I connected to the memory of his love and felt the life living in that moment. His love has never left me, not once...The energy of that moment will live, forever...

Here is where I cried from my soul. This is an ancient hurt, and ancient misunderstanding. I never felt loved by my father, until that moment when he knew he was going to die. I saw the sorrow in his eyes and the light of love, for me. For years, I remembered this moment and yet I never connected with it in a way to carry his love for me, with me. My father does love me, for always and it doesnt matter if the love is recognized for a moment or for many moments...the energy living in love never dies. His love has never died for me...Tho his body has decayed, his touch remains...His hands upon my shoulders holding me, while I cry...Wow...what a freaking revelation...seriously...not known...until it is felt...

and then I traveled the path, further...I felt the love for my siblings and then I connnected to my mother while I was in the womb. I recognize her connection and love to me...I traveled past the umbilical cord to her psyche and felt the warmth and softness of her love and even tho I was not aware...her love lives with me and walks with me in all the moments of my life. I connected to the time before my time in the womb and felt the expanse of the universe and the connection to the Spirit of Life and the moment of creation. The light of love that lives within is a part of the creation of the universe. I am never unloved and never alone. Love is always with me...I am alive with the caress of love from my father's eyes and the soft warmth of acceptance from my mom.

The message is here. You are never alone. Love lives within. Resonate with like resonating beings. Do not accept less than your resonance is...

It is easy to hold on to someone because for a moment they remind you of love. They feed your need for love, for a moment...seek not those momentary fixes...be with love always and the truth of the momentary fixes...shines through...You are worthy of the best...I am worthy of the best, knowing this...how can I keep settling for less?

Written December 22, 2011

Wednesday, January 21, 2015

Beating Bleeding Heart

I wear my heart on my sleeve.
Big heart, beating loud and hard and often quaking
I am not afraid to love, not anymore.
I am finding, others are still afraid.

Afraid of LOVE.

I am not afraid to get to know a person
Know their quirks and qualities
Touch their soul and taste their lips
I am not afraid to send out love energy
This does not mean I am in love
Love energy is about being open to the possibility
Who knows, Will I fall in love?
I don't know
Will you fall in love?
I don't know
Love energy is about possibilities
Getting to know one another
Without fault or fear
Yeah, I know
There are things in my life
Which are frightening
Life engaging
Life taking
and yet, I am Whole
I am a whole person
Who loves to give
Who wants to give
Who wants to be an integral part of another's life
And vice versa

Don't be afraid to give love energy
Let not selfishness take root and grow
Do not let fear keep you in protection's guise
You will not be protected

Yeah, I have this big bleeding beating heart
Bleeding out love energy


Beating out love energy
Exhausted heart
My heart is exhausted
Tired

Art and words by 
Dona Lackey


Monday, January 5, 2015

Full Moon in Cancer




The 1st full moon of 2015 I stood outside at midnight under the moon.
Palo Santo wood burning as I released to the Full Wolf Moon.
Dancing in a circle
I saw my breath
Nose cold
The moon light shining bright
 I felt peace descend
Watched the colors dance around the moon
From gold to blue to red and back to gold again
I was touched by the light
As I released into the night.

I am a giving woman.
A healing kinda soul
I often place other's needs
In front
In place of my own.

This full moon teaches us to release patterns which no longer have a place in our lives.

I release the pattern of placing others needs before my own.
Shattering this way of being and rebuilding mySelf.

I will not become less caring
Less healing
I am
More aware of my needs
My healing

I release you.
The person I want
I release the energy belonging to you
To the ground
To the trees
To the wind
So that you live
In my life, my heart
Instead of in my head

Always seeking higher wisdom
Always seeking higher love
Remembering, I am in control of my happiness
I cannot control anyone else
We all have our place in life
And I am centering within my dark and light energies
To be me
I attract those who are to be
Within the light of my life

Love is a beautiful energy
I love without fear
I am breaking my age old pattern
Releasing
Releasing
So that I accept love
Without fear.