Preparing for the Full Moon

A Cancer full moon... Cancer brings to mind the home.. and family...begging the question, Where do you belong?

Rather, Where do I belong? 

I am an earth shattering life shaker. 

I slip into lives and slip out, leaving memories. 

I hug and give all I am able

Until the fear comes, and I run

I have been doing the moon ceremonies to address, ME... 

my dark side, the woman tho I am...

I am darkness surrounded with glittering light

Glittering light reflects other's light

Reflecting darkness, and I see

Behold! Gaze upon the magic, I see

Gaze upon the light

See into the dark places

Can you find a home, for me?

How can I belong, when I see all I see...

Today, while working with energy

A vision of strings bound to my corded life

SNIPPED, and the stringy tendrils 

began bonding with a new set of strings

Forming a new cord, a new path

A line of broken strings behind me

A line of strings ahead of me

How many paths are set before me

How many lives must I be, loved in?

How many homes must I be a part of?

Words came to my heart, soul

You have been given a new path

Based upon all you have chosen

There are many paths and many ways for you

To Ascend, 

To not Ascend and remain...

I choose to Ascend

I choose to touch lives 

I am an Earth Shattering Life Shaker

I am bonded to the light

I am bonded to the dark

I am a seer of life

Beginnings and Endings

I see multitudinous pathways 

I am not able to lie still 

My life is a reflection 

Let us grow and Ascend

Let us reflect one another

My home is within me

Silent and still

The moment before the sunrise

The moment time stands awaiting the awesome light

There is where I am

The moment when Night and Day greet

My limitless home

I am home

New Moon for the New Year

01/01/14

I prepared for the New Moon with a few days of Meditative silence. I burned the roses of a relationship, past and surrounded myself with becoming empty so that I may be filled.

The New Moon in Capricorn  is a time to plant symbolic seeds within the fresh fertile soil of the subconscious. In order to plant, you must first prepare the soil and clear out debris then, add in the nutrients.

Letting go paves the way for REBIRTH and aligning with quality and integrity!!!
This is a time to BE who you ARE~~~

Create your REALITY with thoughts, words and behavior!
Ask yourself, are you the Victor or the Victim???

I considered all the good that came from 2013

• I am not controlled by fear
• Trusting my inner voice
• Establishing a better maternal thing with my mom
• Paying my car off
• Released negative relationship issues
• New Clientele
• Public Poetry Reading
• Reaped Friendships
• Trusting, it is OKAY to "not know" and be at ease with the moment
• Blogging
• a relationship

I acknowledge all these as good and then asked myself, What good will come by 2014's end???
What will I manifest?

• a leaner and fit body
• New and more clientele
• Business expansion
• Public Speaking
• Health and Wellness
• Aligned with quality and integrity
• To "know" how to belong
• A commitment

I cleared my soil. The old debris, gone and in it's place is Healthy soil with fertile drops of love, hope and clearance to move forward...
My past vows, broken and New energy to replace what was not working...

My Seeds of Manifestation:

• Love
• Health and Fitness
• Wealth
• Whole Relationships

I am breathing with contentment. Peaceful at what will come of the days ahead.

With fire and air mixed with water fair... the earth does move.
and so, it is....

Waning Moon, The Roses

A few days ago I decided I needed to burn  my dead roses.

They were given to me on my birthday last year. The year I turned 39. They were given on the evening of a date.

The date was a preempt to sex. A sexual relationship. I dried the flowers and put them in a vase for display. I love dead roses.

The"relationship" began to deepen and the other party did not want a deeper relationship with me. This was a "taboo" relationship...I had to keep the sexual relationship a secret.

And, of course...it ended...

I have kept the display, and every time I see the roses, I consider what could have been and  remember the words spoken... the feeling of being involved and how it felt so right and good... the emotions were a lie. A big fat lie.

Every time I look at them, I fell the energy of the"let down" ... I let myself down. I let myself fall into the emotions webserver I knew the whole thing was only supposed to be sex...

I've gotten passed this...yet the energy remains...and I know burning the roses will be a wonderful way to release the negativity about relationships.

Every time I see the roses I am instantly reminded of every foiled relationship..I have grown passed this and need the energy gone...

And, so it is done...
With fire, air, water and sent to the sky..
Incense purge me, while the air folks me with NEW..

Releasing...
To be filled...